I’m both proud of and annoyed with myself.
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Proud that I’ve finally gotten some semblance of my Open Studios piece together. Annoyed that I waited so long and now it’s 2:58 pm, which means there’s two minutes before the Open Studios starts and I’m not yet set up to do anything.
Earlier in the day, my partner and I took a walk up the High Line, which is always enjoyable. We then ate at a restaurant called Foragers on 8th Avenue in the 20s. I enjoyed an omelet, which I usually don’t get. I ordered it because the place specializes in their home-made bacon, of which I wanted to get a taste, that day.
I then went home to do some furious editing and preparing for “Open Studios,” to make my contribution, although not asked.
I’ve decided that I will do this teeny tiny thing, for the event. At least to keep myself motivated and to be a little bit bad, as I had mentioned before. I hesitated and hemmed and hawed for so long, and that’s why I’m annoyed. Now I’ll be installing in front of people, which isn’t the best look in the world. Whatever. This is because of all the internal tensions caused by the school, which kinda frustrates my enthusiasm.
In any case, I successfully loaded the video — with many complications — to my old iPhone, which means I won’t need to use the iPod Nano’s and can use that money for something else. I’m still looking for the perfect brown leather jacket. I saw some beautiful vintage pieces, but am not sure whether I will but them. Schott has gorgeous jackets, too, but they are very expensive.
I’m no longer annoyed with myself and I’m rather quite pleased. I wasn’t happy that first years were not allowed in Open Studios, but now, at the very least, I understand why: The second years put a lot of energy into their presentations (at least some of them). It would also be a lot for twice the number of people to be showing, so it’s all okay. I need to save my money and focus on the first year exhibition and then the open studios, next year. I’m pleased with myself that I did everything up to actually showing my work in the way I desired, and could then decide to NOT do it, after assessing the totality of the situation.
I enjoyed seeing all the creativity on display, and also got all of the pizza organized for the party, although there certainly wasn’t enough of it. After making sure that the food was paid for, I chatted with a colleague at the party and then took a car back downtown to celebrate a birthday dinner with my partner’s cousin’s girlfriend at the Red Cat on 10th avenue and 23rd street.
I also need to focus on new opportunities. I’m traveling this holiday season, so I need to think of things I can do outside of the studio. This certainly includes writing and planning for jumping into next semester.